feeling neglected…

yes, by my guy… msged him this afternoon to see if he wants to meet up for lunch cos’ very long never meet up le (since last wed or thurs)… but he didn’t reply… I tot he might still be sleeping cos he’s on night shift tonight… so called him at about 4pm… all i wanted was to hear his voice and chat with him… but who knows?  seems like he was too busy to talk to me so I told him that i didn’t want to disturb him and hung up…

i mean, come on… no matter how busy you are, I am sure you can spare 5 mins a day to just talk… even if it means talk about mundane things… you know, just updating on each other cos’ you not meeting up.. but apparently, I am not even worth 5 mins of talktime… i mean, you can’t even shit in 5 mins… msged him that I felt neglected and not expecting him to reply… cos’ maybe deep inside i didnt’ want him to reply… i tot i should just let him know how I feel cos didn’t want to accumulate all the unhappiness inside… i’m not a spare that just cos’ he doesn’t have any appt with his family/friends then he come look for me… i mean, i’m like last on his list… but hey, he’s like 2nd on my list… 1st is Estelle of course… but at least he is 2nd…

i dun think he will msg me or call me if i dun msg or call him first… it’s like, i’m not even on his mind… it’s like he had forgotten about me like that… i dun know… i’m just feeling very lousy right now… and only if he knows how i’m feeling and he cares about my feelings…

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