Mummy, I changed boyfriend already…

When I heard this from Estelle, I nearly fainted… even though, yes, she had a boyfriend when she was still in my stomach, I never really took it seriously… cos’ her boyfriend, Leroy, was just a playmate as my ex husband and myself are close friends with Leroy’s parents… Then suddenly this morning, she just told me out of nowhere… I haven’t seen Leroy for a long time after I split with my ex husband cos’ I seldom or probably never kept contact with our mutual friends…

So when Estelle told me this, I asked her why and who is her new boyfriend… she said that she didn’t like Leroy cos’ he’s very naughty and rough… and then she talked about her new boyfriend whom she dun even know his name… some boy she saw at IKEA’s playhouse… dun know true or not…

I told her girls dun need boyfriends, at least not now… but dun know if she heard what I said cos’ the topic of our chit chat was suddenly changed again to something else by her… aiyoh… jialat lah like that… hmm.. must tell her to bring her boyfriend back for me to ‘interrogate’ first when she grows up… mustn’t let any boys break her heart… but I dun think her heart will be broken by boys but more of, she will break boys’ hearts… hmm, I was right to name her Estelle… I can’t bear to have her heart broken cos’ she’s my princess… hee…

no time left…

NO MORE TIME LEFT… ARRRRGGGGHHHHHH… going crazy…

Love guru I’m not…

Dun know why DOM Ho commented when I did I become the love doctor… cos’ I’m not… If I am, I wun be dumped by guys for so many times right??? hahaha… I guess my views in love are quite different from the rest of the girls… not too sure cos’ I dun really talk much about love to other girls… hahaha… i talk alot to guys as most of my close friends are guys… hmm, i think my guy is understanding enough to this ba… thank god he is not the possessive and jealous type… or he is?  Baby, are you?? hehe… dun be cos you are still my best friend… hehe… You know you are my closest friend hehe *sayang*…

Anyway, today still on course… I have so much work left at office to clear… moreover, no more time left already… only left 1 week to settle the stuff… actually less than that… sigh… How??? Dun know if me and my team will be able to do it or not…

Oh well, dun think so much cos’ the more I think, the more painful my headache… 1 more month to go.. arrggghhh… think will collapse by then… why why why????

Is it possible to be in love with 2 different persons at the same time?

This was what a friend *E* asked me just now… So told him that I will dedicate this post to him since he was really curious about my answer…

My answer is no… but it’s also yes… let me explain…

For me, if A is truly in love with B, A will not love C… And the only reason why A loves B and C at the same time is because A does not truly love B… A feels that B is imperfect and have flaws and A can never see beyond those flaws… and to make up for it, A falls in love with C for those things he cannot find in B… and usually B & C are the total opposites… if it is true love, A would have been contented with B and see past B’s flaws, not taking them into account…

No one is perfect… To love someone, it means loving the good and bad of them… and true love is compromise and tolerance… that’s what you see in the white hair couples who are still holding hands when they walk together, which i always envy… Ppl now are less compromising and less tolerant and have higher expectations, that is why, so many marriages break up… and mine is one of them… How I wish I have someone to grow old with me and be there when I’m old and frail and probably needs his support to even walk… and to be as loving even though both of us have no teeth when we are smiling at each other… doesn’t matter how much wrinkles both had accumulated because what you see, is the face of the lover that you had fell in love with at the very beginning…

So that’s my answer… i could go on and on as usual but that’s the gist of it…

oh yes, and to my friend, why you dreamt of a big/huge whale… pls see the following… if you want me to analyze your dream, you will have to narrate the dream in more details.. but basically, to see a whale in your dream, it represents your intuition and awareness.  You are in tuned with your sense of spirituality.  Alternatively, it indicates a relationship or business project that is too enormous to handle.  You may be feeling overwhelmed.  The dream may also be a pun on “wailing” and a desire to cry out about something.

I was right about telling you to squat in a corner and cry to relieve the stress isn’t it?  Hiaks!!! The meaning of the whale in dreams is extracted from a dream dictionary and it could be further analyzed if only you can provide details… Without it,  I can’t do much… but seriously, I’m good at analyzing dreams… cos’ I was into dream analysis since primary school… hehe… But I dun do it for free de hor… hahaha…

Guess I will have another additional blog fan after this… hiaks! oh yes, *E*, thanks for the track ‘Estella’s Theme’ from Great Expectations… he knew I probably will love it since I told him I named Estelle after the female character Estella from Great Expectations… Think I mentioned the reason why in my previous blog entries… hahaha…

Shopping splurge on Sunday…

okay, no more shopping till Christmas… the other day went shopping with Estelle bought alot of things… Let me see what I bought… hmm, 2 tank tops from Uniqlo, 2 bras from M&S, bag and shoes and a 100% cashmere stole (aka a long wide scarf) from Muji… got Estelle her marshmellows… didn’t get anything for Estelle cos’ didn’t find anything nice at the shops for kids… Actually was contemplating on the stole cos’ it costs like 99 bucks but it’s cashmere and 100% somemore!!! whahaha… anyway, didn’t own anything cashmere so bought it cos it felt really good on the skin and it looks nice too… hehe… while I was just trying on the sample, this Indon tai tai came over and ask me what was that and she tried also… she said nice and asked me if I buying… told her no… hehe.. but in the end, I bought… whahaha… so at least one less person wearing the same thing mah… Estelle said it was nice on me too… It’s fun going shopping with Estelle cos’ she give her views on whether it’s nice or which colour to buy etc… but her taste in clothes are a bit different from mine… she likes the pastel colours but for me, i think everyone knows I’m into black… whahaha…

Anyway, missed my guy… always have great time with him whenever we meet up… hehe… especially laughing together… sometimes it’s good not to take things too seriously… just go with the flow i guess… hehe…

Estelle crying again…

This week it’s even worse… though her Daddy came to pick her up, I thought she wouldn’t cry since she has her Daddy… but then, the same thing happened again… so whether I send her back to her granny or her daddy, no difference… she will still cry… she even wanted to get the camera from her daddy to take a photo of me so that when she misses me, she can see my photo… aiyoh, when I heard this, I could feel my tears coming out of my tear ducts… guess she must be missing me really much everyday… but she gets distracted easily so dun think she missed that much also… actually I try not to call her everyday cos’ the more she noticed of me, the more she’s going to miss me… therefore, I only call her when I am going to pick her up which is every friday…

we had a great time as usual this weekend… felt that she’s getting older each day and her answers to questions are so adult-like… I mean, I think she’s smart… she is very matured for her age especially when it comes to rationality…

hope she is doing fine over at her daddy’s house… i really dun wish to see her bawl everytime I send her over… cos’ it makes me miss her even more…

2nd day on course… Basic Microsoft Word

Aiyah, I tot my standard for word is really so low so took up this course… learn a few things however, the class is really slow… so spent most of my time during class to surf facebook and play the applications… including the MJ game… hehe… however, it is very challenging since there is no sound of what tiles being hit and sometimes I have to keep switching windows whenever the trainer walk over… whahaha…

Had breakfast and lunch today with my guy… hehe… he so sweet de… morning he called me to tell me he’s picking me up and during lunchtime he msged me to see if I had taken lunch oredi… (cos’ yesterday when he msged me for lunch, I already had lunch… the lunch time at course is really early like at 11.45am/12pm)… Had a fun time with him during breakfast and lunch… All I know is that we kept laughing at each other’s jokes and disturbing one another… hehe… which I really enjoy always… hehe…

hmm… can’t wait for Estelle to come over tonight… I have so many things for her… the hello kitty blankets (x2) + the Ponyo soft toy… hehe… bet she will be too happy to fall asleep tonight… :P just now spoke to her over the phone and told her that I have something special for her… told her that I will show it to her tonight but I guess ‘Like mother, like daughter’, she can’t wait and shouted ‘Mummy, tell me leh!  Tell me now!!’… whahaha… so told her about the blanket but I still have the Ponyo as a secret… hehe… I know she is gg to love it… anyway, the cartoon ponyo looks like her… just like the girl in totoro… hehe…

Thanks Baby…

Met him for dinner just now… I didn’t know what to say at first cos’ obviously it was my fault but no matter how, I know I had to personally say sorry in the face, not over msgs or emails… and I did… He did scold me or I would say, more of say about what I should/shouldn’t have done… I understood before he said it but still I listened… I knew I deserve his scolding de… but after that, we were just like before…

So I want to say Thanks Baby… for well, forgiving me about what I did and I will not do it again.. I promised le… for you and for myself…

We went for dinner and walked around at The Cathay… Saw Ponyo at one of the pushcart and bought it for Estelle… it’s the same pushcart which I previously bought Domo for Estelle.. Anyway, I know she’s definitely going to love it… hehe…

I’m sorry…

Just did something that made my guy angry… It wasn’t intentional but I should have known… Should have controlled myself… I feel really bad and remorseful about it but I guess by apologising or feeling bad or remorseful doesn’t help to diffuse his anger…

I promised him that I will not do it again… but guess he’s still angry probably cos’ he may be thinking that I will break my promise… however, the promise is also to myself cos’ I shouldn’t put myself in danger…

I miss him alot but guess I’m the last person on earth he would want to talk to or see… *sob sob*… I think I may have said it many many times but still, I want to say I’m sorry Baby…

Estelle doing the crying thing again…

It’s been so long since Estelle displayed the seperation anxiety… She cried whenever I tried to leave her Daddy’s house… so I stayed with her and she persuaded me to stay by extending the time and things we do together… finally after 2 hours, she still continued and when I saw that she had probably calmed down and getting ready to sleep, I told her that I had to leave… but then again, she started crying and shouting ‘I want Mummy!!!!’ and was bawling really loudly into the corridor…

I had to leave cos’ I didn’t want it to become a habit whenever I send her back… in fact, it’s been so long since she does that… I also dun know why she did it this week… moreover, i didn’t spend more time with her this week… hate to have sad goodbyes cos’ it pains me to see her crying… that is why I only managed to leave after 2 hours… sigh… really dun wish to see her cry… sometimes feel really helpless to see her cry… I dun like to see ppl I love cry and I love her the most… I just want her to be happy…

Bintan, here I come!!!

hehe… booked the villa already… the trip is confirmed… now waiting my mum to extend her passport validity and I can book the ferry service… can’t wait for the trip in Dec… well, at least something to look forward to… Bali will have to wait ba…  hehe… actually there is a nice hotel at Bali and quite cheap too but fully book… think want to go Bali must book early lor… hmm… oh well, after Bintan will be Krabi in probably May next year!!! hehe…

Estelle is sleeping now so sneaked away from bed to surf the net… hehe… I slept about an hour this afternoon (cos’ awaken by many phone calls from work, damn!) so can’t really sleep tonight…

the other night told my guy to join my family for christmas dinner this year… i think his face turned white straightaway… says he’s scared… hmm… told him dun have to be lor cos’ I will be there also… nothing to be afraid of… moreover my family is not the type who will drill others de… hmm… got to book him early if not he may come out with an excuse to decline this invitation… i guess it’s up to him ba… but seriously, i want my family to meet the guy that I am in love with…

Bintan, here I come!!!! nearly…

ok… so my parents can make it for the trip… now only wait to check with my ex MIL and ex husband to see if Estelle can make it on those days… hehe… hopefully no problem… 7th to 10th Dec… will check with them tomorrow when I go over to pick Estelle up… once confirmed, can book le…

funny thing is my mum didn’t even ask me how much or what… usually she will ask how much the trip costs and if I tell her the price, she will say so expensive, save the money etc… so most times, when I buy stuff, I dun tell her the price… hehe… or I round it down.. :P  hopefully she dun ask this time around… if not, she sure confirm dun want to go.. then I will have to go to Bali alone… hehe… which I dun mind too… oh well, the Bintan villa is really tempting… I think it will be my first time staying at such a luxurious place… can’t wait to go… hehe….

Bali or Bintan?

Ok… now I am torn between these 2 choices… It’s either Bali alone or Bintan with my parents & estelle (provided I can get them along)… If they dun want to go, I think the answer is quite clear… Hmm, let me list out the pros and cons of each:-

Bali (if go, will be going alone cos’ my guy has confirmed that he dun have any more leave left)

i)  Cheaper than family trip to Bintan… Airfare + accomodation at Holiday Inn = $1,400 Expenditure for myself only… can spend more on booze.. hehe…

ii) Alone time + free to do whatever I want

iii) Long holiday, fares is quoted for 9D8N trip…

iv) Further than Bintan.. the further you travel, the more relaxed you are… hehe…

v) Going alone so might be a bit lonesome.. moreover never been to Bali.. however, did it before in Phuket so this con doesn’t really count… hehe… but will miss my guy lots…

Bintan with my parents and Estelle (provided I can get them to go as I mentioned)

i) Family travel trip… haven’t done that since when I was in primary school I think??? 

ii) As location is near, can bring Estelle along…

iii) Expensive… 2 bedroom villa + ferry fees = $2200  Expenditure for all will be more…

iv) Got to cater to needs of parents and estelle (afternoon nap lah, cannot eat that or this lah etc)

v) short holiday, price quoted is for 4D3N

vi) Good bonding time… moreover never brought my parents overseas also… maybe it’s time… as for Estelle, yes, never brought her overseas but she’s too young to remember anything… however, i know we will have lots of fun at the sea-front-private-pool villa!!!! hehe… anyway, promised her to bring her to Disneyland when she grows older, maybe in primary school (actually is I want to go again myself :P) hehe…

vii) they will feel bored while I’m busy sun tanning!!!! hehe…

Oh well… actually may not have to consider so much cos’ I’m quite doubtful that my parents will agree due to work committments and dog committments (there’s a dog at home so feeding may be a problem)… that is why I had asked my brother if he can help out these few days to feed the dog so we can go… he haven’t replied… if yes, then will ask my parents and also my ex in-laws to see if estelle can make it too… hehe…

Though Bali is very tempting… arrggghhhh… but I will feel good if my family is happy also… and the villa will be nice… hehe… okay, so set… Bintan with family first choice.. Bali with Ivy, myself and me will be second choice…

Finally got to smooch him after a week… hehe…

Was kinda disappointed last night cos’ I thought we were meeting up after my shift however, after my shift, I was quite puzzled on why he hadn’t called yet… so I called him and he was still at home… He said he went back home after work first and didn’t know that I wanted to meet him… *faint*… but I did tell him to call me and see if we can meet up tonight when he passed me the fish soup…

he offered to bring me out for dinner but I told him that it’s fine cos’ I wasn’t really hungry and since he’s at home and he sounded tired, told him to stay at home to rest… and I went back home (yes, I am a good girl this week, at least till thurs as for mon - wed, I went back home right after work, hehe)…

This morning when I was waiting for the bus to go to work, received a call from him… He told me to wait for him cos’ he will pick me up for breakfast and send me to work… hehe… had a short smooch when we were saying our goodbyes at my office…

And he even asked me out for lunch… hehe… went out for lunch and he sent me back and had a longer smooch during our goodbyes… we are supposed to meet tonight so i hope he dun pull the raincheck tonight… cos I really missed him and his kisses… haven’t kissed him for a week already… hiaks! yeah, i know, it’s not that long actually but to me, it is!!! hehe…

Fact is, I’m a smoochie, as in, I love to kiss and I can’t live without kissing… and I can kiss non-stop for the whole night… hehe… and for those who had kissed me before, you will know how good a kisser I am… :P  oh well, i know one person who loves my sloppy kisses.. hehe… Estelle!! of course…

Soup extremely sweet…

*giggling*… my guy is so sweet… i was doing duty and he called to ask me if I want anything… he was somewhere quite far from my office and he knows a food stall selling fish soup which is nice… so he ask me if I want some.. told him dun need to come all the way to send the soup to me cos’ didn’t want to trouble him and moreover, I have food in my office…

after about an hour later, he called me on the phone and told me that he’s arriving at my office to pass me the soup… aiyoh, so sweet de… and felt good to see him again cos’ very long didn’t see him already… but didn’t see him for long cos’ i took the soup and went back office… didn’t even kiss goodbye… hehe.. inappropriate mah, though I really wanted to plant a big fat kiss on him… hehe… anyway, hope to meet him tonight… miss him so so much… he made my day and it came just in time cos’ had a bad day at work (fed up with somebody at work, oh well, what’s new)… hehe… oh ya, when I drank the soup, it was really very sweet, must be cos’ it was added with love… *giggling*…

Bali in Dec???

Hmm.. was planning my leave for the rest of the year and realised that I have 13.5 days more to clear… minus out the major events and the leave period of my boss and my right hand man, it was just right… I have one week in Nov and 3 weeks in Dec… whahaha… it’s actually inclusive of my childcare leave… was thinking of going for a trip in Dec… Since Krabi most prob fix next year in May, I was thinking where else to go… So thought of Bali, Kuta Beach, since I haven’t been there before.. But quite ex leh.. there is one cheap and nice hotel but all rooms fully booked… the only place which is beachfront and nice left and cheapest out of all is Holiday Inn Bali le.. cost about $1200 for 8 nights… hehe.. plane tix cost about $170 flying by airasia… oh well… should I or should I not??  if I go, most prob go alone again cos’ my guy no more leave already… hmm… or dun go?? but I need my holiday… arrrggghhhh…

think estelle will be really happy cos’ I will be with her for like at least 2 weeks, one week in Nov and one & half week in Dec.. if I dun go, i will be with her for one month… wow!!! girl power for 1 month!!! hehe… anyway, dun know this year got bonus or not… sigh… but then again, I worked really really hard this year, so I should pamper myself a bit right???  :P  Bali, here I come!!! maybe… hehe…

was thinking going to boracay also.. but checked out the hotels there like not nice de leh… maybe beach is nice lah but hotels bit disappointing… then i think there are many transfers also, so think safer to go bali… hehe… maldives and mauritius too ex le, can’t go…

aiyah, how leh???  if I go, at least got this holiday to look forward to at the end of the year… sianz…

He should be back tonight…

Just back from my usual run again… actually today was kinda lazy to run cos’ felt tired.. but went anyway cos’ felt fat these few days… hahaha… at least feel a bit better after run… hiaks! today was a busy day at work and time passes quickly when it’s busy and finally, he should be back tonight… missed him so much…

and good, my boss will be back tomorrow… so at least no need to cover him anymore… everytime cover him damn suay one… but then again, he not around also good cos’ nobody will be at my ears, nagging and complaining about things… sometimes I just want to tell him straight in the face ‘Oei! you are the boss lah, at least you can do something about it (esp staff who dun work).. complain to me for f**k???!!!!! it’s not as if I’m the boss cos if I am, I would screw them upside down!!!’… hehe… his nagging and complaining can drive one crazy lor… especially when he comes at the wrong time, when I am really busy doing some work and he just plonk himself in my guest seat/sofa and just start yakking nonstop… actually sometimes I feel disrespectful cos’ I dun bother about him and continue doing my work… hahaha.. but no choice, if not, he will not stop…

Can’t wait to see my guy again tomorrow… miss him really much…

3 more hours to go… 1 & 1/2 months to go…

3 more hours to go before I end my shift… another 5 days the end of the event… After that, followed by a major exercise at end Oct and afterwhich, the last event (hopefully) for the year, in Nov… after that, all my officers will be going on leave and I will have to slog to continue with my baby project which I will have to float a bloody tender and stuff… sigh…

oh well… life at work still goes on… though it sucks and sucks extra cos’ got f**ked up ppl here… anyway… why can’t I post out????  sigh… I really want to go somewhere else and do some other things… kinda sick and tired of logistics… hmm… dun know how long I will be stuck here… I think I have contributed enough and also put in extra effort in what I had done… I was hoping to go back investigation which out of all my postings (investigation, command, staff) I loved investigation… cos’ nobody will disturb you if you move your cases and all you need to care about is your own cases… hahaha…

aawwwwww, i’m missing him too much… hope that I will dream of him tonight, at least get to see him in my dreams also happy… hehe….

Ppl who dun know me personally may be reading this too…

Just to continue on what I wrote last night since Estelle went back to her Daddy’s place… Well, cos’ tomorrow I am on duty so couldn’t care for her… had great fun with her again though it was short… we were laughing like crazy girls so loudly when we were enjoying teasing each other… hahahaha… and I think she laughs like me… hmm…

oh yes, sometimes it’s kinda scary to know that ppl who may not know me personally, knows some personal details about me… hahha… it will not be scary if I know that they read my blog or my status update in FB… but why would somebody who dun know you as a friend, bothers to read all these?  that is when it’s scary… guess they might have some agenda and i am very skeptical to all these… oh well, i’m not afraid of stalkers anyway… and of course there are more personal stuff which I dun really post in public…

I miss my guy lots… he’s not around for a few days… will only get to see him next week… but it’s alright, whenever I miss him, I will just send him an email…  doesn’t matter if i dun get any reply from him cos i know he is having a great time with his family… hope he enjoy himself and destress before going back to work…

Wondering exactly how many blog fans I have…

Hmm.. sometimes I wonder how many of my friends actually read my blog… I guess it doesn’t matter if no one reads it… this is more to me like a diary and also a way to provide updates for friends to who reads them..

Used to keep a diary when I was young… I love to write and especially noting down my feelings and thoughts… it’s a way of releasing stress and also to understand the feelings within… and it’s great to take out the diaries and read them from page one after a few years later… the old feelings will come back and I will remember what I had forgotten… more of like while reading, there will be flashback on my life back then… however, I dun have the habit of physically keeping the diary because most times, sad to say, I always end up throwing them away… cos’ most entries in my diaries are all about my then relationships… of course the start of the diary was always how happy I was in love, how lucky I felt being in love, how everything will turn out the way I want it to be like a fairy tale etc… but well, we all know that that didn’t happen, in fact, all my relationships… hiaks… just like my story posted in my earlier blog entries…

So well, I decided to keep a copy of my blog entries, in case the website crashed, or my account got hacked or whatsoever… I mean, I just saw my total entries in my blog… 345 entries??? OMG, didn’t know I had so much things to say though… hahaha… I started blogging frequently in 2008.. that’s like 1 and half years of blogging and I have 345 entries… so worked out to be average of 19 entries a month which means, I write an entry every 2 days… hiaks!! hmm…. I think that’s alot of updates about me… hehe…

and it doesn’t matter if I dun have any blog fans… hehe… it’s kinda entertaining to read back on what I wrote though some parts are kinda sad… but I guess that’s just life… it will never be smooth all the way… if it is, life will be so boring.. Life should be like a roller coaster, with its ups and downs…

hmm… will write somemore about this later.. got to go pick Estelle up… yay, girl power again.. hehe…

Demoralized…

Received an email from manpower this morning… after reading it, damn demoralized… sent out an email to them yesterday morning to ask them to surface my name for posting after major event in Nov… but their reply is that they had checked with my big boss last month however, my big boss not keen to let me go and suggested that I should stay where I am for a longer period… nearly fainted after reading the email…
I mean it’s like, come on, I know I am capable but just because I’m good and so I’m being held back though I want to post out?? Sigh… so should I slack? I mean, it’s like I’m a victim of my own doing…
oh well, wait and see ba… if I have the chance, I will speak to my big boss and see what she says…
sometimes you stay at the same place for too long, it gets too routine… actual fact is that I’m burning out… too much work, no men to run errands, too little time… sigh…

went for run last night…

Hehe… managed to go for a run last night though it rained… by the time I went for the run, the rain had stopped and fortunately, did not even drizzle… the only drizzle was my perspiration…

supposed to go out today but hmm.. my hot date is sick so guess it’s just me again, alone at home… sigh… oh well… everytime it’s like that, if i have a programme, then many other friends ask me out… if I dun have programme, nobody ask me out…

think i go get lunch and then try to get some sleep later… since nothing else better to do…

Estelle not coming over this weekend…

Today is the mid autumn festival and Estelle is not coming over this weekend cos’ she went back to Malaysia with her Daddy… however, last week didn’t see her also, so was missing her really much and therefore went over to daddy’s house to visit her and play with her for a while… ended up teaching her a bit of her school work and well, we did play also lah… hehe… had so much fun with her… just like sisters having fun… hehe… she had so much things to tell me and kept talking non-stop… same for me too… hehe… maybe cos’ we didn’t see each other for quite some time le… we can’t keep our kisses off from each other either… hehe.. anyway, today tried to jio my friends for MJ but all of them are not free cos’ everyone is spending the mid-autumn with their loved ones mah… hmm… anyway, gg to dinner with my mum and stepdad… actually they wanted to go early so that they can come back home in time to watch some drama show… but I was like, wat the hell, so early?  cos’ I only had my lunch at 2.30pm… then my mum said nvm, eat later lor… hehe…

looked so dark outside… actually wanted to go for a run in the night but looks like it’s not a good idea… looks like tonight will be a stormy night… hmm… see how… maybe go much later in the night… my muscles are getting too ‘relaxed’ and not firm anymore so must go work them out… moreover, i have my new NIKE+ watch le, so no excuse not to go running… hmm, ok, set… will go tonight if it doesn’t rain.. probably about 10pm like that… hehe…

*sometimes when things just seem so hopeless, you just got to believe in it… and it will come true… however, when things are meant to be, it will be… when they are not, it will not… and do what you need to do cos’ if you dun, you will regret it in the future… life is too short for regrets..*  with this, I am stil in high spirits… hehe…

Still feeling happy…

Still feeling really happy… *giggling like a small girl*… though today work is like S**T… nvm.. was kinda busy today at work… it’s like 100 emails a day??  and most have follow-ups to do… moreover, my boss still not back in office… whenever he’s away, everyone in office will quickly come to me to approve things as I’m covering his position… *pengz*

my buddy is coming back from HK… told him to help me buy Hello Kitty blanket for Estelle cos’ she’s outgrowing her current one… hmm, then I told him to buy genuine, not fake… cos’ i think fake Hello Kitty stuff look ugly and just not like the real stuff.. hmm, can’t wait for him to be back cos’ Estelle will definitely be really happy with the new blanket… hehe…

Really happy today….

Really very happy today… hmm… wun explain the happiness yet… anyway, busy at work.. supposed to go for my facial and massage today cos’ on half day PM leave but got to cancel my leave and appt cos’ my boss on 3 days’ MC… and there was a meeting scheduled for PM today so under the bo pian act, i had to rep my boss and attend the meeting…

another event is nearing… really tired… will collapse from over-working really soon… i am very sure, during APEC, confirm I will fall sick cos’ it’s always the case.. work too hard and fall sick… hai…

hope can pull through… i have lots of other work on hand and cos’ of all the events, dun really have time to follow up… hai…