What had happened in Mumbai made me sick…

When I first heard about the terrorist and hostage situation in Mumbai, I got the same feeling I had when I heard about NYC Sept 11’s incident… I felt sick in the stomach, that such things are happening again… I mean it’s really sick that these terrorist are doing it again… Doesn’t matter if they are from the same terrorist group or not… It just seems that they are loving what they are doing, to kill others and see evoke the hurt in all… Well, at least its over now, for the moment… but terrorist acts will never end… Only can pray when such things happen…

Anyway, my NOKIA E90 is spolit again.. specifically the speakers… when ppl call me, I can’t hear them but they can hear me… If I call them, I can hear them and they can hear me… This is not the first time it spoils already… 2nd time… then I am trying to do the backup however it seems like the back up doesn’t work too… the other time I sent my phone for service, my whole data was wiped out and was kinda pissed… but then again… this time around, I am more cautious however, something is wrong with the backup… And I got to be sure before I send it in for servicing… fuck sia… nvm, will keep trying to get it right… if not, I think I will have to spend one whole week keying in whatever data I have manually… Hai… Angry leh… Maybe it’s time to change a new phone… Hai… Think I better go see what’s wrong with the backup… damn…

Christmas plans?

This week seems to be passing by really slowly… It’s only Wednesday today… Got a long day at work tomorrow… Kinda stressed this week because covering my boss again for one whole week… Hai… Another 1 & 1/2 weeks and it’s my turn to go for long leave… Yay!!! Whole week will be with Estelle…

Tot of planning for a Christmas dinner this year… so at least history will not repeat itself this year… hahaha… for those who dun know what happened, you can go see my archieve… hahaha… Anyway, also dun know what to get my family for Christmas, so tot giving them a Christmas dinner treat or something… Bought something for Estelle already, actually it’s popcorn in Hello Kitty metal tin… Thought of wrapping it with the scarf that I am still trying to finish and at least when she open it, she will get a surprise hopefully… Hee…

After Christmas is the new year… Wow, another year has just gone by… really gone by very quickly… another year older soon… Shit, I am going to hit 30 in about 2 months time… Damn!

Kylie!!! Kylie!!! Kylie!!!

Just came back from Kylie’s concert… She was GREAT!!!! Hot, sexy and pretty with cool dance moves… I recorded lots of videos also… Hahaha… Was caught once however, told the usher that I was just taking pictures… wah, must really hide a bit here and there… but alright lah… so those who wants to watch the vids, come look for me hor… hahaha…

Waited for quite a while before the concert actually started… I went early to Leisuredrome to have coffee at about 6pm… Funny thing is after ordering coffee at starbucks and waiting for my drink to be done, the attendant was asking me ‘Are you going to the Kylie Concert?’… I was like shocked… Then I replied ‘Ya..??’  Then he asked ‘what time does the concert end?’… It’s like, how am I suppose to know… so I told him I dun know lor… whahaha… How did he know that I was going to her concert??? Probably because I was wearing my boots ba… whahaha…

Went to queue at the east entrance at about 6.45pm cos’ I thought entry will be allowed from 7pm… However the gates were only opened at 8pm… entered however got to wait at the lobby area for another 20 mins before we can enter into the stadium… waited for another 40 mins at my seat… Then finally, concert started at 9pm… Kylie’s concert lasted about 2 hours, it ended at 11pm… think she sang more than 20 songs, I think…

But she is damn good… her voice sounds exactly like in the album… even though she was dancing and moving around… she is so damn good sia… MY IDOL!!!! looking oh so pretty too… Will definitely go watch if she comes again… hopefully… Hee…

Too short a weekend… 2 more days to KylieX 2008!!!

The weekend has been too short… Estelle went back already…  I think I have recovered because no more stuffy nose and the energy is slowly coming back into my body… Hmm… actually tot of going for a run since I haven’t been running for quite some time le… however, it looks like it is going to rain and think I better dun go for a run yet… maybe later in the week or so because had a bad dream just now…

While I was taking a nap with Estelle, I dreamt that I was exercising or something similar… my heart beat was so fast that I tot I was dying… even though I know that I was dreaming, I couldn’t force myself to wake up… I mean, I just can’t, even though I wanted to… I could feel that my heart was beating really fast… I was thinking, that’s it for me this time… Am I having a heart attack or what?  What if I die in my sleep and Estelle could not wake me up when she wakes up? etc… subsequently, I drifted back into my dreams and couldn’t remember what happened in the dream… Well, I did wake up in the end but probably, it’s a sign ba… Hmm… better dun go running yet… in case I collapse and die like in my dreams…

2 more days to KylieX!!! Yay!!! finally get to see her in concert live…

Finally will get to see Estelle tomorrow!!! yay!!! + answers to the Animals question…

I am recovering… slowly but surely… and am going to see Estelle tomorrow… Yay!!! She must have missed me so much because she had been calling me during the nights though she was always distracted by the TV and games etc and most times, left me talking on the phone after she forgets about me!!! hahaha…

It’s been a long time since I was sick for more than 1 week… It’s been 9 days le… and I could feel that I am going back to my normal self… Yesterday slept the whole day till I could not fall asleep during the night!!! Hai… I only fell asleep at 4.30am… Aiyoh, offed the TV at 12 midnite after watching ‘project runway’ and laid on my bed, tossing and turning and waiting for myself to fall asleep but couldn’t… after 4 and 1/2 hours, I think I finally fell asleep… Dun know why, just felt uncomfortable… like my body is dead meat and had no sense of touch on my body unless I tossed and turned… Anyway, felt lots better this morning… Just now managed to catch some Jap drama serial… Oh ya, and I just remembered the question that I had asked a few days ago about the animals… wait, before I lose my thought, there was this part when the guy said this to the lady ‘Even though our future holds alot of hindrance and obstacles, I am willing to overcome them with you’… WAH LAO EH… so touching leh… okok, for the answers to the animals question… A recap:

Question : Imagine you are on a ship and you have the following 5 animals on board with you - horse, lamb, monkey, tiger, cow.  Your ship came into some obstacles and you will need to throw the animals off board.  Arrange the animals in sequence of which one you will throw out first.

This is similar to situations whereby you need to handle which means, if you meet with some obstacles, which part of your life will you sacrifice first to overcome the obstacles.  Anyway, the below sequence was my answer. 

Tiger - Pride, Cow - Career, Monkey - Money, Horse - Family, Lamb - lover

It’s just a fun question, no need to take the question too strongly or hard on yourself if you chose horse or lamb as first choice… hiaks!!!

Sleeping beauty… & What is Love? Chapter 50

Went to see doctor again last evening… Could not take it because I was really damn sick again and my med had finished so no choice, dragged myself to see the doc after work… Went through the same process of checking temp, heartbeat ad breathing etc… Then doc said that I could have sinus infection rather than the flu because the symptoms are about the same… So he gave me another type of ‘more lethal’ antibiotics plus some other med for cough, flu and inflammation… then he said ‘pls continue to be sleeping beauty the next 2 days’ and gave me MC for thurs & fri… the other day when I saw him, it was friday night so I dun need any MC and he had asked me to be sleeping beauty and have plenty of sleep… hahaha… fortunately my boss’s leave ended yesterday and he came back to work today and will be working tomorrow so at least I can rest properly at home with my MC… however, still had many phone calls these morning from work… but afternoon was peaceful… I think the med is really lethal because it made me even more drowsy than the previous ones and even when I had alot of sleep, my head really feels damn light (light-headed) like my head is flying in the air…

I think I am recovering though my body feels very weak, with tingling sensation all over… Will be sleeping beauty again for tomorrow and by Sat, should be well enough to go pick Estelle up!!! Yay!!! Just talk to her over the phone… she sounds happy as usual… at least she did not bug me to go over to pick her because she knows that I am sick… Hee… finally get to see her after 2 weeks of missing her…

Another chapter of my story ‘What is Love?’ Chapter 50

Chapter 50

It was quite obvious that I was siding him because I was defending him when Sandra told me about the things that I should have known from other friends.  However, none of them told me.  Maybe they did not dare or think that they are in no position to inform.  But they are also my friends and I did not deserve to be the last one to know.  Apparently I was the last one to find out.  I felt stupid, felt used, felt cheated.  But I did not want to jump into any conclusions.  I was just taking notes and keep in mind about all those things that happen.  I then had the urge to move back home.  To make up with T*.  To say that I was sorry to have left home so abruptly.  I could not bear to lose him.  He was my life, my everything.  I lived my life for him and for Estelle, for this family.  He made me complete and I felt so incomplete when he was not part of my life anymore.  I loved him but yet.  There were so many whys that popped up in my head.  Too many and even till now, I have no answers but the answers are not important to me now as I had given up on us.  I just want to move on now. 

I seek Sandra’s and Elvin’s help to move my things back from my mum’s place to our place in Punggol.  It was stupid but I just could not bear to live another day away from our place.  I felt uneasy and not in the right place.  Thankfully, Sandra and Elvin helped me out.  Actually I am very grateful to them as they were very supportive throughout even though after T* and myself split up.  I haven’t been meeting them as I do not think that it is appropriate since T* is still in contact with them.  I do not wish them to come to a point whereby they have to choose between friends. 

I moved back home in the evening, without my mum’s knowledge.  Unpacking seemed so much easier than packing.  Maybe because I did not like packing and I did not really want to leave home.  It was so difficult that when I was packing and moving, my tears just kept rolling.  I didn’t want to cry however I could not control myself and I had to bite my lips to prevent myself from sobbing loudly uncontrollably.  I cried too, when I moved back home.  But controlled and composed myself because Sandra and Elvin were there.  After they helped me shifted my stuff back from my mum’s place to home, they left.  They did ask me if I wanted to join them for dinner but I declined.

This was the period whereby I did not have any appetite to eat at all.  I would go without food for a few days and subsequently eat very little just for the sake of eating and starve again.  I did not feel hungry because my heart hurt so much that I could not feel anything other than pain in my heart.  I lost weight like nobody’s business.  In total, I lost 22kg in two months.  Amazing?  I did not expect it too.  I weigh the heaviest at 70kg.  I shed off the extra kilos till I was about 48kg.  I did not purposely lose weight but I was glad in a way, because T* said that I was fat.  So I did it, effortlessly.  At least I showed to him that I can be pretty again and that I can be attractive to others again.  He looked down on me too much and my self-confidence during that whole year dipped to the lowest in my life.

Me and my big mouth… Damn!!!

I am sicker today… Tot I was recovering yesterday but today was really bad… The phelgm was like stuck at my throat and my nose and I am always having tissues stuff up my nostrils even though my nose is not runny yet… it just feels that something is coming out of my nostrils but no matter how much I blow my nose, the mucus is still stuck up there… Damn!!!  My antibiotics is running out, I am left with a pill left for tomorrow morning… I think I will go see the doc again tomorrow night (if I am still very sick), and ask him to give me the most lethal medicine/shot he have for flu… F**k sia…

I shouldn’t have commented that I am getting better… I have to get well before Estelle comes during the weekend… if not, I am going to miss seeing her again… Hai… only thing I like about this illness is that my voice sounds sexier when my nose is blocked… hahaha…

must force myself to sleep early tonight… like maybe 10pm or what… but find it very difficult to sleep these few days… because maybe cos’ ill and feeling uncomfortable… Hai…

Recovering… & ‘Tropic Thunder’

Sianz… my antibiotics is finishing but I think I am still sick, though not as sick as during the weekend… Hopefully I can recover by tomorrow because it really sucks to be at work even though sick… I think the flu bug is around at work because many staff are also on MC… Hmm… Probably it’s the weather… turning wet and cold at the end of the year (which I love!!) so probably many is falling sick… Hiaks…

The other day went to watch Tropic Thunder… Yes yes yes, I know it’s been released for a while however only managed to catch it last week… I mean, IT SUCKS!!! lah… hai… disappointing leh… kinda… ben stiller and jack black weren’t at their best… Robert Downey Jr was good though… I think the movie wasn’t funny enough… I did not laugh till I was rolling on the floor or cringing in the seat so it is not funny enough for me… Haha… 

It’s only Monday today… still have 4 more days to go before I will get to see Estelle… and another 4 days of work before it is some relaxing time during the weekend… Heard that there had been some mice infestation at our general office at work… Went around to search for the mice however, can’t find them… Thankfully, my office did not have any traces of mouse droppings so should be quite sure that they are not infesting in my office… hahaha…

While I was sick duing the weekend, I spent most of time watching my Japanese drama serials… And in one of the dramas, there was a psychological question… You can try this if you want..

Question : Imagine you are on a ship and you have the following 5 animals on board with you - horse, lamb, monkey, tiger, cow.  Your ship came into some obstacles and you will need to throw the animals off board.  Arrange the animals in sequence of which one you will throw out first.

I will give the explanation to your answers to the above question in my next post… Hee…

Damn Sick… Hai…

Fell sick on Wed… Think it’s the flu bug… went to see the doc on Friday night… It’s sun morning and I still have yet to recover… Hai… Couldn’t take MC because covering my boss so had to be around to clear whatever shit comes… hahaha…

So since sick, did not fetch Estelle home this week… dun want to pass her the virus… Heard from her daddy that she was sick also but doing much better now… But not me… Hai… Dun know why so sick also… Wasn’t feeling so well after I donated blood… Maybe lesser white blood cells after blood donation so caught the bug then… Dun know also lah… Hate the feeling of being sick because can’t really sleep well and can’t do anyting but lie on the bed like a piece of dead meat… Esp yesterday… spent all my time on the bed other than having my food and going to the restroom… I dun even have the energy to play my Wii… hai… or surf net… today a bit better but still… hopefully I recover by tomorrow because my boss not around and anytime, a bomb will just fall in my lap that kinda thing… Hai, already ‘hope’ two bombs last thurs and friday.. f**k sia… things always go wrong when I am covering leh… hai, I think I am unlucky anyway…

Miss Estelle… promised her that I will bring her watch Madagascar this week… but guess I have to bring her next week… felt so bad that I can’t fulfil my promise… Hai, she sounded like she really missed me over the phone…

Estelle will definitely not be in the sales line when she grows up…

I forgot to mention in my previous post about an incident which happened with Estelle while we were shopping at Vivocity the other Sunday after Sentosa… It was funny and still is now when I think back…

I was shopping for NIKE running shoes (which could insert my NIKE+ into) because I could claim the money spent as some welfare benefit at work… So went into NIKE shop and looked around… I shopped around and decided on one so told the salesperson to bring my size for me to try…

While waiting, Estelle, as usual, was running around and walking around, fiddling things here and there… I was sitting at the bench with my bro and gf and Estelle went over to the display area and took one shoe over and showed it to us… Then she said ‘This one nice or not?’… Then all of us said in a chorus ‘Not nice..’  Then she went back to the display, put back the shoe and took another shoe… and came back to us again and asked the same question ‘This one nice or not?’… Then we replied the same thing ‘Not nice…’  I think she repeated about 10 over times because there were 10 over different models of shoes being displayed…

In fact when she asked ‘This one nice or not?’, she gave us her cheeky smile with a convincing look… Really cute… She did this till there was no shoes left and with the last one, after our reply of ‘Not nice…’, she said ‘Not nice then dun buy lah!!!’ with the fed-up kinda tone while walking back to the display to put the shoe back… whahahaha… it wasn’t a shout or anything but more of a fed-up and frustrated way… Hee… We were all shocked with her response because we did not expect her to say that… After the moment of shock, we kept laughing nonstop… hahaha…

With this, I bet Estelle will definitely not be in the sales line when she grows up… hahaha…

At Sentosa on Sunday

Brought Estelle to Sentosa on Sunday morning with bro and gf… She had so much fun, I mean, she’s a beach girl ya… Hee… She loved the sun, the sand and the sea, like me… hahaha… Fortunately the weather was on our side and it ad rained during the night and was cloudy without much sun when we were there…

Estelle had so much fun that we had trouble getting her to leave… Hee… Didn’t know that it can be such a huge feat to bring her to the beach because had a hard time convincing her to let me wash her hair… hahaha… finally she did after my bro helped with a dry towel placed at her eyes… aiyoh…

After Sentosa, went to Vivocity for some shopping… after that, went to Orchard… Estelle managed to catch some sleep while I carried her… In the evening, went for dinner with my parents… Hmm, such a long day and by the time we were back, I was exhausted…

Promised Estelle that I will bring her to watch Madagascar next weekend… Hai, work again tomorrow and bet that there will be lots of work piling up… Hmm… Oh yes, I collected my ticket to KylieX too… must pin it up on my board, awaiting to go for the concert… hahaha…

Kinda missed Estelle already, just sent her back… Hmm…

Miracle wonders!!!

The other day went for dinner and some drinks with an old buddy whom I haven’t catch up with for quite a while… Hahaha… It’s Tok lah… and I mean, dun think guys can’t be as bitchy and gossipy as women, cos’ they really do and he can even beat the women… :P

He was late for about half an hour and the first thing he said after we ordered dinner (cos’ it was 8pm and I was f**king hungry) was ‘Want to hear some ‘juicy’ news?’ Whahaha… I think he got the habit from me… whahaha… We exchanged a few ‘juicy’ news and caught up on how each other is doing… Bitching about work and ppl and of course, a bit on ourselves too.. Hee…

Well, somehow or rather, the topic of ‘miracle wonders’ came about after he mentioned that his brother is afraid of chicken pox scars (cos his brother is really into vanity and is currently nursing a bout of chicken pox hahaha)… So then I was recommending some ways to get rid of the scars and of course, the easiest and most effective way will be to go for laser treatment etc which cost a few thousand dollars at least…

So I revealed my miracle wonder secret wih him… told him that I could get rid of my pimple scar easily and it works!!! the main thing is that the clear cream that I use actually works!!!  hahaha… So I shared a few of my ‘miracle wonders’ which I had tried and tested… The following are 4 things which I used and the results are wonderous…

1) Activa Condolisa Scar Gel (about $50) - it works with just probably 2 days application.. after 1 day, the scar really lightens and if used religiously for a week, the scar disappears… I use it on my pimple scars (for the pimples that broke due to the accumulation of pus which had no way to escape but to burst and also for the pimples that broke because of my itchy hands)  Hahaha…

2) The Body Shop Cellulite Cream (about $50) - it works within 2 weeks of usage… by the time you finished the 2nd bottle, Volia! Cellulite gone… I am not saying that this will help to reduce your fats but the ‘orange peel’ skin will somehow even out… but if fat, it will still be fat… at least no more ‘orange peel’ skin… currently I am not using it anymore because I do not have any more cellulite… Hee… unless I keep putting on weight again…

3) Palmers’ stretch marks lotion (about $30) - I used it during my pregnancy days and I do not have stretch marks on my tummy and my thighs… it prevented the stretch marks from forming… Got to use it throughout till the day you give birth… However, I didn’t know that stretch marks will also form on the ass so I did not apply it on my ass… so when I saw my ass with the stretch marks, I freaked out… hahaha… after birth, I continued to use it, esp alot on my ass, it didn’t disappear however much lighten… Not using it now because decided that it’s alright as I do not have any skimpy bikini bottoms… mine is the boy shorts’ type… hahaha…

4) Meiji Amino Collagen (about $58 per can - equals to about 1 month usage) - every morning, I am sure to down a cup of water mixed with this collagen powder… it sucks at first because the taste is really weird… however, you got to suffer for beauty right?? hahaha… by the 2nd week I use it, the crow feet at the edge of my eyes which usually appears when I smile, was gone… Amazing?? Yes it is… I am still drinking it now…

Recently I had tested another so-called miracle wonder ‘Baby Foot’ (about $30)… It promise that the dead skin on your feet will fall off like sticky tape losing its stickiness and your feet will be as smooth and supple as a baby’s… hahaha… You will have to soak your feet in some plastic bags filled with some cream for 2 hours… after that, wash it off and wait for a few days before the skin on the feet starts peeling… I tried it on Monday and my skin started to peel today… However, not as dramatic as shown in the pictures and my new skin underneath my old skin doesn’t seem to be like a baby’s though it is a a bit much softer… Hmm… So I guess this doesn’t count as a miracle wonder because results not as amazing as the rest…

If you have any, pls kindly share it with me… I am always in awe when beauty products acutally works… hahaha…

I got silver for my IPPT!!! Yatta!!!

Hahaha… I just took my IPPT this morning and I got silver!! Yay!! So at least can get it off my mind till next year… For next year, I will move up one catagory to Cat Y or is it Cat Y1?  Anyway, I know I will move up one catagory… I did my IPPT better this year @ 14:58 compared to last year which I think is 15:20 or so… Hmm… one thing off my mind le…

Oh, I just clicked buy ticket for KylieX 2008 on 25 Nov… hahaha… couldn’t find anyone to go with me so I decided to go alone… whahaha… Quite pathetic but well, really can’t miss it… Actually before Kylie got diagnosed for cancer, she was supposed to come to Singapore for a concert however it was cancelled after she fell sick… I missed her once so wouldn’t want to miss it again… Hmm… And damn, got it only today so couldn’t get the cheapest tix… Paid $253 for the ticket… But well, I’m not going to Phuket anymore (cos’ during dry season, price is 3-4 times more ex) in Dec so can used the money saved to go for this concert… whahaha… I got most of Kylie’s albums so can considered as her fan lah… Love her songs… whahaha… Can’t wait for the 25 Nov…

Went to Sentosa for a tan again just now after my IPPT… fortunately managed to squeeze an hour of hot tanning before it started to rain… so not so bad and during weekdays, really nobody so I could undo my bikini top to tan… No, I did not tan without a top… just that removed the straps to tan so that there will not be any tan lines on my shoulders and back… Hmm… Too bad the weather wasn’t on my side, if not, could have tan longer to get darker… *yawn* suddenly feel so tired le…